thinkdeep

2006-08-25T09:38:00.000-07:00

So So Cute!!!!

2006-08-23T13:15:00.000-07:00

Beautiful. . .

For all those who may find interest. . .this is my gorgeous sister on her beautiful wedding day. . .

2006-08-23T07:21:00.000-07:00

Old Friends. . .

So. . .this might sound like a ushy-gushy, over sentimental Hallmark card. . .but hey, I'm going to post it anyway.

Life is filled with so many different experiences--and emotions to go along with them. Excitement, sadness, anger, frustration, anticipation, peacefulness and so on. Last night, I experienced the art of catching up with an old friend, and along with that I felt content. Honestly, God has put people into my life that simply. . .for lack of a better description. . .belong in my life forever. As we change and move onto different phases and stages in life. . .our friends change as well as our surroundings. . .however, I do believe God has put a certain few into each of our lives to be there indefinitely. For this, I am so thankful.

2006-08-22T14:16:00.000-07:00

Approaching Autumn. . .

I approach Autumn with anticipation! I love living in New England. The seasons are one of my favorites of God's gifts. . .I love watching the weather and getting excited over every dropping degree in the forecast! I love the idea of thick turtlenecks, jeans, hot beverages, walking through crunchy leaves, apple picking, going for Saturday drives just to see the foliage, bonfires, hayrides. . .etc. Everything around us slowly transforms and changes into a completely different season. It is interesting to think about change. . .so much changes in life. . .I resist change. . .I loathe it actually. Sure, a change of hair color or weather--I can handle that, I can almost enjoy a little refreshing change. It is when my sister gets married and moves to another state, or when my other sister goes off to college, or when my dad moves out of the house, or when my job completely changes, or when a friendship is severely broken. It is these things that hurt me.
Lately, God has been grabbing me by the shoulders and pleading for my attention. I can humbly say that He currently has my full attention. Unfortunately, it hasn't been like that in recent months. . .other people and other things have stolen my heart and God has been getting my leftover affection and my leftover time. Because of His amazing love, He has forgiven me for that and He has drawn me close to Himself. I need Him to be my constant. He never changes. . .his love stays strong, his promises stay true, his lovingkindess endures . . .so as all else around me is changing and transforming I stand in quiet awe of God and His steadfastness.

2006-02-20T15:45:00.000-08:00

Today was an excellent day. A true gift from God. In Sunday School this weekend, we discussed that worship is enjoyment. Enjoyment of God and each thing that He chooses to place in our lives. Today was worship for me. My sisters and I woke up and decided to take a little day trip. We dressed warm, stopped at starbucks and headed out to Beavertail, Jamestown, RI. It was gorgeous. We climbed rocks, took pictures, and walked around the whole park. Not yet satisfied, we ventured over to Newport. It was so fun to be at such a beautiful place to be with my two best friends--my sisters. We wanted to end that day at Beavertail to watch the sunset. I could have not orchestrated a better day. It was wonderful and my heart is grateful.

2006-02-13T14:13:00.000-08:00

I am as dumb as a sheep. . .

Ps. 139:1-6 says. . .

"O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thoughts afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou has beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it."

Why is it so hard for me to make God real in my life? I read this verse and I know it to be true. It stirs my soul to know that God knows me so intricately. Once I acknowledge Him as my Creator, Father, Savior, Healer, Friend. . .my life will completely change. Until then, I will live a mediocre life, never fully understanding what I possess in Christ.

2006-02-07T14:47:00.000-08:00

An Ode to Valentines. . .

You know what really urks my tater. . .when people wear black on Valentine's Day. And even worse. . .people who make a mockery of those donned in pink and red. I proudly wear my pinkest pinks and reddest reds to celebrate this day. Valentines day is a special day nestled in the middle of a cold, drab winter. It is about doing special, little things for others to show them that they are loved. I love little corny valentine notes, chocolate lips, conversation hearts, roses. . .the list goes on. Let's embrace this day. . .as a day for fun and a day for showing love--to everyone around us!

2005-09-30T17:30:00.000-07:00

Malachi 3:6 "For I am the Lord, I change not. . ."

I am so thankful for the above promise!!! God is the ONLY constant in my life. I am so glad I can rest and trust in Him no matter how turbulent everything else seems to be. He knows, He plans, and he loves--I have no need to fret. AAAhhhh, sometimes it is soothing just to type that!

2005-08-24T14:37:00.000-07:00

Hero. . .

Honestly, one of my favorite things to ponder is how God works. Obviously, I don't always understand the things He does nor or do I see things from His heavenly perspective.

For instance, I love the passage that explains the sickness of Lazarus (John 11) Everyone is flipping out and running to get Jesus to come heal Lazarus before he dies. The passage even mentions that after Jesus was told of his illness "he abode two days still in the same place where he was". No on could understand his reasoning--Lazarus needed help--the expected Him to run and heal! However Jesus had a different plan, he said to them, "Lazarus is dead. And I am glad for your sakes that I was not there, to the intent that ye may believe; nevertheless let us go to him." Jesus wanted everyone to not just be impressed that he could heal--he wanted them to believe that he was Christ and could do anything!

I wish I could train my stupid, stubborn, self-sufficient mind to grab that concept. Even when things seem utterly grim and hopeless--God is waiting--for me to completely believe, to believe that He can do not only great things, but impossible things.

2005-08-23T16:33:00.000-07:00

My, my, my. . .

Tomorrow is the last day in my cubicle. Oh the time spent in this little cage. . .The things I have done assuming no one could see. . .the time I have squandered. . .the emails I have sent. . .etc.

Next week begins my real job--I will be entering the world of education. I wish I had more of a transitional time. . .I go from chilling in a cube to having the weight of a young person's education and mental growth hanging on my shoulders--sheesh. Can I handle the pressure??? What if I forget I am in a classroom with students? What if I forget I am not surrounded by bleak, gray feltish walls with tacks and pictures posted everywhere??? What if I forget that I have a real job now???

Ha, Ha. . .consider the above to be posting in jest. I am extremely excited about my new opportunity to dive into the educational realm. I am unbelievably pumped to teach and become a part of these young people's life. However, my nervousness exceeds words. . .

For now, I must get back to bidding my cubicle, my where-I-spend-1/3-of-my-day home, a final GOODBYE.

2005-08-22T13:10:00.000-07:00

Triviality...

How can I despise yet love something at the same time?? I hate the fact that I am so easily distracted by the little things of this world, yet I revel in it's follies.

2005-08-02T15:50:00.000-07:00

Changes. . .

Change must be one of the most bittersweet occurrences. There is definitely an element of excitement involved--some synonyms would include--fresh, new, unknown--the possibilities are endless. However, starting something new is usually coerced with leaving something old. I personally love "old". I love the familiar and safety of an old sweater, I love walking into a place that I can walk through with my eyes closed. I love knowing something or someone so well that I can recognize the scent.

This year has been a year of great change. . .I really don't have an old sweater I can slip on. . .I have to keep my eyes open lately. . .And my nose is void of familiar aromas.

2005-06-29T09:25:00.000-07:00

A father was once explaining to his daughter how a person can be saved and have Jesus live inside of them. Very confused, the young girl asked her father a few questions. . .

"Daddy, God is very, very big right?"

"Yes, He is."

"And I am very, very small?"

"Well, yes honey you are."

"If God is so big and I am so small, if He lives inside of me--wouldn't He be popping out all over the place?"

What a lesson to live by.

2005-06-25T13:20:00.000-07:00

I am so thankful for my cheeks!! I scorched myself to a well done state this week and my cheeks became encrusted in hard, leathery old-lady skin. Did you know that one cannot move any part of the face without the cheeks being affected? After much lotion, cream, oil and big time whining--I am somewhat back to normal--Never AGAIN will I allow myself to be so dumb as to cook my face like a burger--If I ate burgers, I would opt for well-done, when it comes to cheeks, I prefer slightly pink.

2005-06-20T06:37:00.000-07:00

Mondays are as not nice as Fridays are nice. . .
Monday is farthest day from the weekend, the farthest day away from freedom and fun. However it is also a fresh start to a new week. Life is far too short to despise days based on such triviality. Today is a gift--a beautiful, wonderful gift. Not only did I wake up this morning, but I woke up in a home with people I love. I was able to walk with my own two legs to the bathroom and take a hot shower, followed by numerous cups of coffee. I have my very own Bible and have a relationship with the God of the universe who I was able to meet with this morning. I also have a closet full of clothing to choose from. I also have ownership of my very own automobile, which drives me to a job that supports my daily expenditures. Wow, I am rich, very wealthy. So, you are now reading the thoughts of a rich girl--a grateful girl.

2005-06-17T13:01:00.000-07:00

What would I do without Fridays? So much excitement is held in that one day--two whole days ahead with no occupational commitments!! Will it be sunny? A day filled with outdoor activity and sunburned skin? Will it be rainy? A cozy day spent inside reading and sipping coffee? Plans will not be determined in order to maintain the carefree glee of spontaneity. Who knows what lies ahead:)

Gifts

2005-06-16T16:02:00.000-07:00

Each day amazes me. Today for instance, so much is interweaved into 24 small hours (8 of which are spent sleeping). I am grateful, and I am smitten over any moment spent otherwise.