I am as dumb as a sheep. . .

Ps. 139:1-6 says. . .

"O Lord, thou hast searched me, and known me. Thou knowest my downsitting and mine uprising, thou understandest my thoughts afar off. Thou compassest my path and my lying down, and art acquainted with all my ways. For there is not a word in my tongue, but, lo, O Lord, thou knowest it altogether. Thou has beset me behind and before, and laid thine hand upon me. Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high, I cannot attain unto it."

Why is it so hard for me to make God real in my life? I read this verse and I know it to be true. It stirs my soul to know that God knows me so intricately. Once I acknowledge Him as my Creator, Father, Savior, Healer, Friend. . .my life will completely change. Until then, I will live a mediocre life, never fully understanding what I possess in Christ.